another year is down,

there's alot of up & down this year,yet it's one of the most memorable year.(:
there you go my new year's resolutions & what i wanna tell my friends :D

New Year's Resolution 2010!
▪GCE 'O' to get 20points & below!(if can get 15 & below better ! :P)
▫save more money to get what i want with my own money (:
▪i wanna become i better person,better den now & before.=D
▫get into TP,SP or NP.
▪i hope SuJu stay united!(it's a must)
▫a nice year ahead!& maybe find something that's suitable for me ahead (:

until here first if not too many to type :P

(in no order)

Shanice AhMei:
15 years & still going on,we haven't been going out lately.must go out soon.
all i wanna tell you is do well for your upcoming GCE 'N' Level!& ily!

Jeannie Mama:
love love you!you also must do well for GCE 'N' level yeah!miss youuuuuuu~
& ily.

Rachel L.:
you another one must do well for school.& stay pretty always,ily.(:

Shirly Daughter & Jiahui Y.:
grow up~ & yeah,kpop insanity :D
there's too much to say to you.i just wanna let you know,you've my support! :D
&loves,loves,loves.

Afifah banana Daughter:
gone through so much with you,seen you grow up & yeah i won't continue saying the same old stuff but stay strong yeah?i will always be there (:
love you always.

4E3'09:
i miss you guys so much.2 more weeks & we will meet again.
i miss those times we spent together,good & bad ones.
i miss how we fight through for 'O'.
i miss loads of stuff that happen in our class.
love you guys,always.

Michelle W. & Chloe T.:
i miss the days we used to be together with Fel too.
hope that we can be like those times again :D
stay strong & happy!
i love you guys (:

Eileen L.:
tangmei~ been very long still i've seen you right?like 9 aug till now.
meet up soon yeah?i miss you much.
good luck for your GCE 'N' next year too.
go out shop for chinese new year stuff soon yeah! iloveyou.

Juliana P.:
you don't think too much luh birdnest!
must do your best for the upcoming year!
if there's anything that you need help can find me!
always here for you (:
much loves.

shall end here work later & JB tmr (:
i hope everything turns out right for geng.

i'm still holding on;

would be using this blogskin temporary,just bear with it.
i've a urge to tell you this:
▪i didn't speak to you,it doesn't mean i've forgotten you,it's just that i still can't let go of you.furthermore,i'm scared that you would push me away once more.▪

now back to what i want to tell my friends.(in no order & of cos i would type another post on 31st dec as usual!)

Beisi:
sometimes we don't talk much,it's not that i wanted too.
it's b'cos i realised that sometimes knowing too much it just isn't a good thing.however,i've been changing.thanks for all the tolerance.
one thing i want to tell you is that,i'm no longer the xinting you knew in the sense that i've grow up.(:

Meeta:
sweetie,sometimes we might fight with each other.but deep down i know all that is just not serious.even if we don't tell each other about what happened,we always know it just by out heart.however,there's one thing i gotta tell you,no matter what i will always be with you (:

Felicia.T:
went through alot with you.you see how i changed & grew up this two years.
might it be b'cos of what reasons but i can see that in somethings you're definitely more gullible than me.time to see things more clearly!:P

Tinghui:
how long have we known each other?i guess it's about 6years?
times flies,i know what you're thinking just by a small action of ours.
sometimes,be realistic especially for love.don't let go when you know it's right,that's what you all would always tell me.yeah,of cos you have my support.:D

Someone special:
i know you would'nt read this post but i still have to tell you something.how long have it been?we both know the answer.i might push you away when you helped me,it's not b'cos i hate you,it's b'cos i'm scared of getting hurt by you once more.in fact,i wanted to tell you thank you alot of times,i just couldn't say it face to face to you.deep down in my heart,i've yet to change.yet to change for my blurness,yes i'm more brave now but i still need the same amount of protection like ever.there's one last thing to tell you,never be scared of falling down,just stand up will do (: if i can do it,you surely can do it.


alrights,the others on 31st dec!:P
miss you guys~

no matter how noisy it is,when we met it's quiet.

a super short update (:
haven't been updating this blog ever since my comp broke down.D:
work is busy as usual but fun!
i make alot of friends haha!
loves loves to them !:D
somehow,i still miss you & have a urge to see you,no matter how short the timing would be.
argggh damn!
shall not talk abt him :X
i'm bored now cos i woke up too early to chiong show.den now waiting for time to pass before going to work.
alrights,miss me uh! :P
much loves.

i'm back :P

i woke up @ 12 today :X slept for a total of 12hours :P

141109,Saturday

watched My Girlfriend is An Agent with shirly & afifah daughters.

we didn't managed to get the 2012 tix.ohdamnit.

but this movie we caught quite nice & funny luh.

bloody hell the whole theater laugh like hell man.

you want know why cos in the end both the girlfriend & boyfriend are secret agents -.-

but also got touching & some kiss scene damn funny & nice.

don't wanna be a spoiler.

den went to fairprice for shirly to get her sushi ._.

she finished it like in less den 5 mins?

walked to white sands & bought food :P

den trained home (:

reached home ard 9.30pm.

den i continued to watch Tao Hua Xiao Mei till like 11?

& i slept till this morning 12 :P

131109,Friday

Friday the Thirteen.

in the morning went for job interview @ Tamp CPF building.

thanks afifah daughter for following me :D

after that we went to bedok to wait for shirly & nabilah for afifah.

they are both late ._______________."

den i had my lunched & went to mac.

i help shirly do her work and she treat me drinks.LOL.

super randomness luh.

Pictures : http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=121300&id=708544643&ref=mf

121109,Thursday

went Vivo with Shanice Ahmei [:

went daiso & i spent 8bucks there.

had lunch-ed @ My Chicken Rice Shop.

the food there quite nice & not that expensive uh.

after eating window shop awhile & bus-ed back to chaichee.

ard 5 went to meet afifah.

went century square to collect her phone.

den bought her school shoes & bused home.

i finally updated it :P

so tired :X

kay i go watch drama now :X

3%,it's 3%

i love him ;

currently listening to 我爱他-丁当

it's a very nice song.& it's from Autumn's Concerto.

touching show indeed,i cried?

how long was the last time since i've cried just for you again?

anyway,i shall update more tmr!

i hope i could smile everyday,just like i did before.

Autumn's Concerto ;

我从来都那么乐观，因为，我傻得可以以为笑一笑，一切都会过去。

对，我很天真，或者是笨，笨到没有别人可以像我一样。

对他，有时候，还会很想念你，有时候，会恨不得把你忘了。

可是到了最后，我还是走过了这一切。

我明白，事实是残忍的，我更明白，时间不能倒带。

对她，不论是哪一个她，都不重要了。

因为我明白，是我的错，我没有反驳的力气了。

对，我累了，不论是肢体上的疲累还是心灵的疲惫，都累了。

我还能做什么呢？

我真的好累，好累。。。

blue tomorrow,

heyo,i'm back :D ( after a very very long sleep :X )

went to granddad's house,b'cos it's my maternal grandmother's 49th day after she got called home.

damn fun luh,so many ppl was there.

all my aunt & uncles.

not to be missed is that i learned how to cook good food ! :DDDD

i super long never chat with my cousin leh,ytd finally got chance (:

in the afternoon went to fairprice.

lols,my cousin buy 4d ask me got any numbers want buy not,but no number to buy leh.):

den went back we make fruit cocktail den ard 5 we started cooking for dinner.

super long duration used on cooking b'cos we need to cook one full 锅 of 'sharkfin' soup.

after that was slacking time :D

i went to watched hai pai tian xin,damn damn funny luh :P

达浪，达浪，达浪~

xiao zhu in that show damn funny + abit bai chi luh :P

me & my cousins watched until we laughed non-stop.stuck to the comp don't want eat dinner luh.

i left for home ard 8 b'cos mummy gonna work today!

shall wait till 28 dec to meet all my cousins again :D

i'm look forward to it.:DDDDD

for pictures go to : http://www.gunsmokegrey.blogspot.com/

shall end here first (:

somehow,somehow,it's hallow inside.

oh damn that crapo physics.
'm so so so tired!but...there's POA paper tmr :\
i guess i just need to hang on?
dang,49days this saturday :|
so damn fast.well,i better go & rest before intensive POA~
i'm waiting for the right one to arrive.

last second,

enjoy this new song of genie's ,and then try to understand the feeling behind this song.quite meaningful.

lyrics:
我关上了门 最后一次听你说我们

熟悉变陌生 把我往记忆里扔

我应该习惯你离去的眼神 才能让失去你变得更完整

窗外的街灯 还在努力掩饰著早晨

我的叹息成全了整夜的苦闷

我该努力习惯这样的气氛 才发现 失去了爱不用再等

我知道 我的一切你已不想要 继续在乎只会让你想逃

我不相信这全是种煎熬 原来离去是那麼难预料

早已看穿没有我想要的好 我的等待换不到你拥抱

只好让回忆短暂的炫耀 原来任性对彼此都不好

清晨的街灯 唤开了城市中的心门

我的等待成全了整夜的苦闷

RUN AWAY 在你的回忆里狂奔 才了解 失去了 爱不用再等

我知道 我的一切你已不想要 继续在乎只会让你想逃

我不相信这全是种煎熬 原来爱你是那麼难预料

早已看穿没有我想要的好 我的等待换不到你拥抱

只好让回忆短暂的炫耀 原来任性对彼此都不好

多想再一次紧紧的拥抱 就算给我一秒也好

一秒可以给多少 我都想要

我知道 我的一切你已不想要 继续在乎只会让你想逃

我不相信这全是种煎熬 原来爱你是那麼难预料

早已看穿没有我想要的好 我的等待换不到你拥抱

只好让回忆短暂的炫耀 原来任性对彼此都不好

让回忆继续反覆炫耀 原来失去对彼此都不好

what we needed was a second chance,

i'm back from the busy week.
yeah,my maternal grandmother is gone,for ever.
well i still can remember her voice & her looks.
she's really a very nice grandmother,although she can't see us even when she's alive.
yet,i knew she cared for us.i still love & miss you,grandmother [:
well,what can i say now?i'm somehow tired after this long week.
gotta regain my study plan & stuff.
two weeks down,four weeks to go before 'O' level.
alrights,shall update my statue whenever i can.
XiNTinG♥
i'm satisfied everyday as long as i got to see you once,
i just hope that the day when i can't see you comes so soon,just one month left till everything gradually end.then,it will really be the end.
baby,i still love you.

what's the next song?

世界只有个你 ,谁也不能代替 ,如何把伤心权利 ,换成快乐的能力.
什么才是爱情 ,如何挥别过去, 若有人再说爱我 ,我看着镜子里的自己 .

sudden urged to blog.
kay i'm so-got-nothing-to-do now.
cos practically i'm waiting for mommy's call den i will go down to Simei.
hais ): i dk what to say,lost of words.
R.I.P my grandmother,love you always.
5weeks left to GCE 'O' Level exam.i've got to buck up.
pull up my socks!Xinting you can do it!yes you can!just one last lap left.
till here,with love.♥

i realised,

well,shall upload some overdue pictures.




G Force :D

pasta mania last saturday.

i seriously,killed calories this week.
i'm like so weak now that the wind could literally blew me away.
damn,i've got so many things to buy yet not enough cash.maybe,i should cut down & save first :\
let me count how many packets of maggie i had this week,
i think at least 6packs :X
school is gonna start tmr & i've yet to complete my A Maths hmwk.
left with 2 school papers to complete.
i think i'm not gonna laugh after i got back my prelim paper yeah?
i hope i'm not the top ten from bottom anymore.
thinking about that results make me wanna cry,oh damn it.
study session,anyone?
less 2 months before 'O' level now.
i shall start my mugging session soon :\
look out for my twitter updates :D
not gonna blog that much now.HIATUS?=P
alright,bbye :D

without you nothing's wrong?

wanted to blog on sunday but didn't.
i think i abit gong gong now liao.
listening to sad sad song out of a sudden.
den go look @ AhMei & her sister's blog,i look liao heart pain ._.
hais ):
i guess somethings are just meant to be a dream,something that couldn't be happening once again ):
anyways,i've got pictures to post but maybe not today bah.
shall end it here,bbye

could it be nothing's gonna change?

meow~
currently with meeta sweetieeeeeeee @ my house.
damn the SPA prelim today (especially physics) ! ):
HEYYYYYYYYY PEOPLE, I am the one and only meeta :DD so whats up????
Anyways, anybody got see YOU???
Okay basically I'm lame but I LOVE XINTING'S HOUSE MANNNNNN. ok bye :D
basically thank you:DDDDD i know that mannnnnn =P
sorry for being so lame,but anyone know how much did i screw the freaking SPA paper up? ._.
damn you man physics -.-
gonna rot tmr for POA paper D:
need to study soon so shall update later !
bbye ~ XD
(p.s YOU are you reading this ?????)<------ meeta did it ! :S
/edit
WENLI YOU STONE!I ROCK :DDDDD
JIAYOU EVERYONE TAKING POA FOR PAPER TOMORROW!
we can do it,can't we?{:
GAMBATEEEEEEEEE (:

it's confusing you know ;

sharing this song with you ;

愛一直存在 - 梁文音

作詞：馬嵩惟、陳孟奇
作曲：陳孟奇

那天我揚起帆　
想看看未知的海
心裡很多話想說說不出來　
雖然我臉上看不出來

天空一樣蔚藍　

卻換了多少雲彩
那時的你讓我幸福百分百　
是否為我等待

我知道 我的愛 一直都會存在
沒有你淚停不下來
你知道 我依賴 多不想Say Goodbye
我痛說不出來

我知道 我的愛 一直都會存在
沒有你快樂都停擺
某一天 我期待 和你笑的燦爛
回頭看愛都在

站在你的門外　

我決心不再徘徊
心裡很多話想說說不出來　
但我想你一定都明白

時間過的好快
想念卻不曾更改
現在的你是否幸福百分百　
我應該怎麼猜

我知道 我的愛 一直都會存在
沒有你淚停不下來
你知道 我依賴 多不想Say Goodbye
我痛說不出來

我知道 我的愛 一直都會存在
沒有你快樂都停擺
某一天 我期待 和你笑的燦爛
回頭看愛都在

我知道 我的愛 一直都會存在
沒有你淚停不下來
你知道 我依賴 多不想Say Goodbye
我痛說不出來

我知道 我的愛 一直都會存在
沒有你快樂都停擺
某一天 我期待 和你笑的燦爛
回頭看愛都在

愛一直存在

heyo!i'm back :D
shall update with pictures & video of my nephew & nieces :B
i'm still thinking of the performance ytd for teachers' day.
most of us was so damn high lah!
especially when the 'Wonderboys' came out.
everyone got so excited lah.
ahli says she will dance when graduation come!await for the performance kay ! :B
&& 4E3 gave Mr Ang (Papa) a orange plastic board with all our wishing & gratefulness.
school ended ard 12++ took 69 to winnie's house for science tuition.
she & her mother very cute lah! :D
had chicken ham cheese baked rice for lunch :X
den had tuition till 3++ stayed at her house to find song until ard 4.30+ den walked to 800+ follow her buy stuff & bus-ed home :D
so tired off ._.
Sunday
went to the Convenant EFC's 31st anniversary @ Suntec City.
two hours of winter for me & ling lols.
it's kinda you know,hehe.
but Hagen Tan's part was nice :DD
had lunch buffet @ Singapore Flyer's Love the world soul cafe,bistro & bar.
super chio & cool lah that place =D
den went bugis bought inez's pressie & ling bought her dress.
trained to tamp i bought my top @ Uniqlo =P
den went mac find afifah daughter & joel.
went there for awhile,& den bus-ed to cousin's house.
reach 85 there ard 6+?
i can only say those five small child are as energized as ever.
i guess they have some never ending battery changer in them eh.lols.
& nevertheless,Happy Birthday Xinhui! :DDDD

i shall go & study/revise soon eh?

(P/S: view the video carefully & you will see one little cute girl snatching my phone away)
& the pictures :D
enjoy!:D

i wanna be a beautiful mistake,if i'm one.

i'm so damn bored & tired.
just dk why nothing can get into my brain now.
especially when i'm studying.
need some rest from studying ):
i wish that November doesn't come so soon :\
gonna plan my schedule for september soon!
update again once i got everything i need.(:
i miss you,

vulnerable;

i'm tired shall let the picture do the talking (:














i dk what's wrong with me ytd & today but i'm just lost in the middle of this puzzle.i got to carry everything on my shoulder.i even got to think about what fault did i have.i can't can't even find the key to my heart anymore.when you was here i could solve everything easily but now i got to solve this myself,single-handedly.i guess i'm just not used to it.i..really can't handle this anymore.no matter how i try to solve this,everything got messed up.whenever i stop the trouble for this,that problem came up.i really hope all this would be fine soon.i don't wanna everything to be gone again.just like you.tell me what could i do?

i'm falling apart ;

all that i used to have,they're all gone.

yeah!finally have the time to use my comp :D
been so busy either with test,hmwk or exam.
on english prelim paper down so many more to go ):
alright,i shall start updating from sunday ;D
Sunday (09/08/09)
HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
went temple with Mummy♥ to pray.
alot of ppl ._. super squeezing lah.
the food was delicious [:
den bus-ed back to inter.went mac.
jinxian,melissa & another guy was there.
sit there with them for ard an hour.
den train-ed down to City Hall to find Eileen Tangmei♥.
i was punctual!:D
den walk-ed to marina square.damn lost our way ._.
went to Suntec instead of marina sq so had to turn back.:\
two sotongs :X
went to bought tickets for UP.it's freaking 10 dollars lah!our money flew away in a second ._.
walked ard before the movie as it's @ 5.30.
had an hour's time.went BK to eat.damn it man,just wasn't my day.
my phone went to a total one bar kinda thing.
& imagine i got to used it till ard 10 @ night?
went to get nacho for the show.
the show was nice but something happen before the movie started. :\
nice movie overall.den went back to suntec's cotton on to buy short.
after that went to the fountain to watch the fireworks.
it's pretty!gonna upload the video once i get it ;D
after that my phone went flat ard 8.30 after my mummy's call.
on the way to mrt i saw my class guys.
damn irritated by them,public nuisance :X
used tangmei's phone to call shazli.
met him @ kembagan's mrt platform.
went home together.
thanks shazli for sending me home& the heart shape torch! (:
reached home ard 10.i learnt something bring extra phone out -.-
slept ard 12midnight.
Monday(10/08/09)
woke up early for tuition.
met winnie @ bedok inter.
tuition started @ 12.
was super tired after that lah.
went tamp to get stuff & den met beisi laopo♥♥ ard 4.15.
sorry for be late eh ):
reached home ard 5plus.
had to do hist lah ):
damn tiring man.
Tuesady(11/08/09)
damn today!super unlucky kay!
sensitive nose make my day worst.
was sneezing all the way lah ._.
still need to stay in school to 'do' hist.
somemore for two hours man alone somemore.
damn fel qkl♥ lah :X
still pangseh me after that.had to go home alone.
was giddy enough luckily i didn't fainted on the way back :\
bath & stuff took medicine.
fall asleep ard 9plus.
too tired ._.
Wednesday(12/08/09)
shiok shiok day!woke up ard 8.30.
prepared everything & met beisi laopo♥♥ @ eastpoint @ 10.00.
i wa spunctual!wanna know why?
simple!i go there every weekend if my mother go.cos my grandfather house was there!LOLOLOL~
(out of topic:X)
had kfc breakfast,waffle with egg {:
den meet sweetie♥ was obviously late,somemore got cheated by the taxi driver.12 bucks for a trip from marine parade to simei.
after breakfast went to walk ard den went pop to change some stuff.
afterwards bus-ed to school.
reached school ard 12.
paper started ard 1.30.super nervous that i actually didn't knew what i was writing man!
after that paper i almost wanted to kill myself lah ._.
of cos,i didn't.
next paper was better lah.luckily had enough time to do finish.
after the paper ended went bedok inter to pack food.
in the end reach home aunt cook already.lols.
no choice ate what my aunt cook.my pack food left for mummy.
Thursday(13/08/09)
i tell you ah,my bad habit is back again :X
heng mummy not at home or else i'm dead.
i only pack my bag before i leave house.
anyway,after school had the english reading prog with mrs tan.
my articulation went harewire ._.
after that went to bedok mac with fel qkl♥,enhao,siying,jinxian.
had cheesecake ._. i regretting eating it now :\
broke after that.went home did hist until crazy.
tang xin feng bao was funny & nice :D
Friday(14/08/09)
i'm so tired now lols.
damn it my aunt is like nagging @ me lah.
shall upload the video & pic once i get it (:

Things So Singaporean

how do we end up this way?

I been tryna make you see everything,You need is right here with me

i realised you're still the one in my heart yeah after so long.but what about you?
how did you end up this way?i dk.it's all just unexplainable.
all i wanna say is that don't ever let your pride get in the way.we aren't like what we are in the past.what am i suppose to do,when you aren't with me no more?
please...don't turn and walk away.Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through to you.Like you don't appreciate all that I do.
我很想不再爱你，可是我能吗？你好像已尽属于我的生命中一样，非常重要的东西了。可是我猜不透你的心。。。
i'm crazy over you....

currently,tired :\
update tmr/sat.

there's only me left with all the bruises.

i miss you,but i guess you doesn't?
i don't wanna let go of this stupid thinking but i just couldn't,could i?

heyo! i'm happy cos i finally got an A2 for my chemistry CT kay!
first time ;D overjoy yeah!
but,i flunk my physics test damn it man!
school was tiring yet fun to be when my group of friends are there (:
i fail A Maths test by 2 marks ._.
oh yeah,finally class tee is coming ! :D
man,i'm broke lah,daddy's birthday is like next tuesday?
i don't know what to get for him,any ideas?
alrights,shall end here {:
i still love you?

sweet & sour {:

tomorrow would be a better day .

heyo! just finish connecting my bloody internet.
connection got prob ._.
went out ard 12 took bus to school bus-stop met afifah daughter there :D
bus-ed to tamp.saw y.jiahui on the bus =D
went pop to get my stuff i spent all the money mommy gave me there ._.
den went century sq aries & lunch-ed @ mac.
after that bus-ed to bedok inter.went mac to study.
ard 4.30 left and went to library as we were lifeless.
walk ard inter.bought mommy's stuff & afifah got her chocolates.
5pm we decided to go bedok library to study again.
as we both have three test tmr ._. damn it.
eh,the air-con is so shiok lah.
& we didn't really study we cam-wored :X
ard 6.10 we left the library saw peepo.
& home sweet home.
short & sweet post ;D i'm so tired now damn it.
photo taking tmr ._. why must it be on a monday!?
i hate it to be on monday man,monday blues
right,i shall end my randomness here.bye!

you're the most suitable ;

the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

heyo!i'm finally back again :D
very tired after one whole week of long hours of lesson.
finally changed my blogskin.
i've been busy with planning my revision plan.
& finally completed .___.
i need to study everything on physics for the coming class test on monday.
i can't afford to fail!
& of cos A.Maths test on partial fraction,polynomial & Modulus function.
more test to come i guess.
english oral on 20 Aug,prelim paper on 12 Aug.
no much time left already ):
hahas,while searching for stuff ytd night i found out that my father was in Npcc too :O
my family 80-90% ug members ;D lololols~
alright shall go revise & do hmwk now! :D
i still love you;

the love you wanted ,

meow ! back from tamp ;D
took back A Maths CT today suppose to be happy but in the end not.
kay lah can say the mark i score is what others want but my teacher say still not good enough cos the paper is very easy.
forget it i shall just do well for the upcoming prelim to prove her wrong.
so i need to buck up ;D
after A Maths extra lesson went to Tamp 1 with Esther♥ & Inez [:
den met with eileen,yeeching,daphne @ the food court.
we saw cao guo hui & den yc totally went crazy lols.
had lunch den went to look for yc's birthday present den left ard 3 to go to tamp polyclinic.
went for x-ray screening,damn long ._.
tmr going see result.
after screening went back cs to find they all.
den walk ard left @ 4.50 like that.
reach home @ 5.30.
that's all for today {:
bbye~ ♥♥♥

just you,

boo boo boo!
i'm gonna insane liao lah ._.
recently,it's either my gastric prob come back or my backbone & knee cap.
old illness ._.
i don't feel like going to school tmr however,i have to go .
guess i'm gonna breakdown one of these days soon.
so hmwk to finish,i wonder when will i ever have a break.
yeah,i need a rest!



i realised i'm missing you once more.just once again.
i've been seeing you in my mind throughout the day.
where all those memories are back,where you are back like then.
you seem so near yet you are actually so far.
i know it's over but i'm just.... thinking of it again.
it's all right,better days would be here.
i wanna overcome this fear,i wanna just be a friend,that's all.
maybe we can't be like then but i just wanna be a friend of yours,nothing much.
hope that you would realised that i have never broke the promise of ours.
i miss you.

Norago,

i have been neglecting this blog for simply one reason.
study ! ._.
wtf lah prelim is like in a month time?
i shall update one day for all the pictures & stuff [ if i remember =P]
i'm like currently obsessed with Super Junior ~
i wanna tell all my friends to strive for prelims & 'O' levels!
i can't afford to fail already ._.
Ganbate! we sure can make it deh :D
update soon ;D

just little bit court in the middle ,

woooo~ just wake up from one nice sleep ;D
where shall i start updating from?sunday?
Sunday
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY ;D
went out @ 11.30?
took bus to tamp to meet winnie [:
when to shop :X
MNG sale damn nice lah a bought a short ;D
den went to cotton on to help AhMei buy her shirt & my shades.
next,is Tampines 1.
bought a tanktop from Topshop.
& i'm broke.had some food :P
after which went fro tuition.& home sweet home .
Monday & Tuesday
-Day1[Monday]
Woke up @ 6am den prepare & reach school @ 7.55am.
had temperature taking.
den at ard 10.30 we had the Situation test game thing for the juniors.
my station is the Pull It Up,together with fel qkl,yongding,sayfong.
can say quite fun & tiring lah.
my right hand was painful after the whole game cos i was timing the time for each group.
den had lunch.was oh kay.
after lunch was slacking time for us lah.
ard 2plus went home to bath & get my stuff.
mich came my house & i had a hard time finding my sleeping bag .
at last my dad found it for me :D!
had cup noodle & went out of house @ 5.30+?
met chloe on the bus & den alighted @ fel's bus stop.
which we also met shimin.
bus-ed back to school.
didn't took dinner.cos was full XP
watch The grudge at night.wasn't scary for me cos i simply don't understand the story line?._.
den had the Night Walk AKA Confidence Walk.
pretended as ghost with beatrice.
starting was quite fun lah.but slowly very tiring & we are sweating like hell already.
at the last few pair we went inside the 2N1 classroom.
it's damn messy after our flipping of table & stuff.
some of them really got scared lah.
the night walk started like ard11pm and ended only ard 2am lorh.
slept at 3am.but didn't really slept.
fel slept like a dead log lorh.
den @6am on tuesday got woke up by student councilor's camp -.-
nvrmind cab home with chloe reach home ard7am.
-Day2[Tuesday]
met chloe at fairprice den took bus to inter's mac to find fel & mich.
had cappucino & hashbrown.
den went back school ard9.15?
they were having breakfast when we reached so basically slacking time again.
we had free time since morning till 11plus when we waited for amazing race to start.
me & mich took grp3 aka the ABCDEFGHI grp :D
the amazing race started @12.30.
bus to bedok & trained to White Sands.
went to the checkpoint & got no one ._.
the grp went in searching & the station master appeared ._.
guess what they went to buy drinks lols.
den we had to search for an item with the barcode given.easy peasy :X
finish the checkpoint supposed to go Parkway but had lunch first.
saw other groups o.o
after lunched trained to eunos & took 15.
met jingxi on the bus :D
went to borders.
the air-con damn nice ;D
the grp got scolded by the borders staff cos they had to chase after jingwen & mimi.lols.
after that went up to giant to find yuan,raymond & steward.
completed the station & we bus-ed to airport.
damn nice ride.we finally had a rest which really helped alot :D
reached airport & we ran all the way to the checkpoint.
had to name 8 items that we can't bring onto the plane.
we had 7 den last one forgot so two guys ran up to departure hall @ T1 to see.
by the time they came down we got the answer already.
so we left.we ran for the skytrain den for the MRT.
reached simei & we heard we were the last group for simei's station.lols.
had to find the cheapest item in challenger which was $0.90 & the grp said $9.90.XD
anyway by that time we really thought we were the last few grp.
however,when we reached Bedok Stadium,our last station.
the station master told us that we were the first grp to reach :O
so we quickly finish the station and we really were the first lah ;D
so we walked back to school.ah finally can stop running.
but we still ran from the red swastika's school gate to front gate and walk in.lols.
was damn tired by then lah.& our leg really no energy already lols.
rested damn long.had dinner & bus-ed home ;D
bath,eat ,teevee,sleep =P

i'm finally done with the updates.sorry for the long post.
bbyes [:

without you ,

是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼 眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我也值得被关心

一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴
天灰了 快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里
忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空
精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想有拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹
那是谁的温柔留在我的小手
微不足道却那么重

漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没
整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走
带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求
还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

here , not .

haven been updating for so long cos i'm preoccupied by studies.
finally my holidays start from today man!
left less den two weeks of holidays & so many hmwk to do ._.
how i hope school holidays really does extend :X
there's so much things i wanna do,but there's just so little time for me.
anyone got any ideas for father's day?
i wanna go out lah !!! ._.


pictures of you coming back to my mind,just what's wrong with me?
i know that the truth is that you just aren't there anymore.
but somehow the truth doesn't hurt me that much anymore.
i'm pinning at hopes on us anymore.
but somehow those pictures of us keep passing by my mind.
somehow i remember those words of yours.
somehow i still remember and miss those times.
somehow i ... still wonders if ever those thoughtfulness of yours will be ard me again.

你在房間 像幻燈片
你在我眼裡蔓延
你在手機 你在筆電 無法隔絕

你在深夜 像黑咖啡
你在我心裡面陪我失眠
可是卻不在 我(的)身邊

origin ,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JEANNIE MAMA♥♥♥!(100609)
&&HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY kohYILING♥♥♥!(110609)
tired :\
yesterday(110609)
went for A Maths lesson @ ard 9plus10.
got early released so me,yuan & inez went for lunch @ yoshinoya ;D
had platter set for 5.95 only [:
damn fun to eat with them lah.
& inez bowl was filled by VEGETABLES!hehe .
den went to fairprice for yuan's sushi.
after that went to mini toons for candies ;D
cop candies from inez.
thanks & sorry inez ;D
aftermath went to pop to listen to songs.yuan went crazy cos of 'Stand By Me'
den bus-ed home with inez.
home sweet home ard3plus :D
today(120609)
came home from A Maths lesson.as usual i'm super shag now.
i wanna go out lah!~
EILEEN TANGMEI WHERE YOU?!?!?!?!
alrights blog later ?

when i remember you ,

ahhhh ._.
i'm so tired after one week of study :\
haven been updating for the pass one week plus?
i'm so tired after one whole long day today ):
omgosh,today school got ' cockroach war ' lah
cos after they spray some insecticides,all the cockroach came out.it's EVERYWHERE lah!
tmd scare me to hell lorh.@ general office there still got one flying ard deh!
jiu ming man,luckily that time was leaving school for home ard or else i'm gonna scream alot :X
anyways,i shall update tmr (:
2 more days ;D

incomplete ,

Yesterday
went out with winnie ;D
we trained to bugis,bought a new black sling bag for tuition usage.
had lunch at Bugis Junction Basement.
after that we went to Tamp 200+ & 800+ to find tuition,but found none x.x
had dinner @ Kfc :X
was a tired & fun day {:
Thursday
took back report book,total horror to me.
my L1R4 is 26? L1B5 is like 35 or something?
i really need a tuition.seriously.
had a lecture from Mdm Tay.which makes most of us in a real bad mood lah.
reach home ard 5?
Tuesday
had guides farewell party.
hahas,all i wanna say is that thanks for all the pressie , cakes , cele & everything you all did for us.
the buffet food got loads of leftover lah.
so we pack give the guys eat lols.
anyway,love loads to all my beloved juniors [:
------------------------------------------------------
damn tired man,i'm like sick ?
xi guan liao eat too much ice-cream :X
alrights update again ;D
anyone got any tuition to intro?
每个人都有不同的故事，
也许会有相似，
但是跟会有分叉，
无助是每个人都会遇到的，
那么我们因该互相帮助吧！

i'm totally in a lost ;

wtf lah! after today's mdm tay lecture we totally no mood liao lah.
now what sia,my father want me recall is which teacher say Mid year Not important.
how i remember siol.he want dua me isit?
damn bad mood now lah.
anyone still remember which teacher say deh mah?
jiu ming ahhhhh!~
update maybe tmr bah.

how i hope our chemistry & love is still there ;

• Saturday

• went bugis with Shanice AhMei♥

• bought high waist skirt & short ;D

• had thick toast & honey peach tea @ C.Nai HK Cafe.

• bus-ed to ECP.

• met MaMa♥ & Georgina.

• played DDR,leg damn pain ._.

• went home ard6.30

• Ivy Jiejie & her bf @ my hse ♥ ( her bf look damn alike Korkor lah! )

• watch teevee,boys over flower until 11plus.

• && sweet dreams.

• Sunday

• stayed @ home all day round.the weather is bloody humid luh!

• do chinese hmwk.

• computer & song ;D

Today
i sweat damn alot today luh!idiotic weather.
still sweating now.
had MT lesson the whole day round, it seems to make us sleepy & fall asleep.
lunch had ice-cream ;D
ended school @3.45 x.x
went inter to meet Shanice AhMei♥ & yuen ♥ & their friend.
bought adapter & went back hse here deh ntuc.
bought kinder joy & follow AhMei pack food & home sweet home.
so damn tire,i wanna go watch teevee now ;D
i can't wait for tmr!
i wanna buy that long shirt ._.

with you , that's happiness xP

T.T i fail bloody english by 3marks -bang the wall-
seriously,i saw the result i was damn shock lah!
overall percentage pass!heng ah!
this year's IPP exercise is damn fun!
we did better lah & we tear down even faster den last year record.XD
4E3 is unique in a way ;D
i'm really tired off by all the work staking up especially Chinese.
hope all this really does help.
Thursday
had a real long day.
den had Guides,we practically did nothing!
we just chat our through the session.
finally going step-down next tuesday ;D
had our 'bonding session' with shimin,yuan,fel,huanyin,beatrice,rennie,amanda.
we chat like for very very long.
some parts are funny but some are really sad lah.
dismissed the guides ard 6.30?
& we continue chatting hahas.
wanted to left for home but it rain when we just lock the door.
so went to canteen to chat.
left me shimin,fel,rennie & yuan joined us later.
chatted until 7plus den left for home.
reach home ard 8?
hehes,i finally got back my precious phone :D
i slept ard 11?cos of E.Maths work & Chinese Practice Paper.
anyways,gotta go ;D
jiayou,gambate!

i don't understand,

• i fail my history ): 19/50 but my SS pull me to pass Comb. Humanities ;D
• i fail 2.4km run ._. expected one .:X
• fail English MYE T.T

that's an short overview.i really dk how update.
i'm currently like stressed up by Chinese ._.
after today's run my chest is still pain until now.
i wonder what is happening,but when i'm doing the Chinese Practice paper in the afternoon,it's really pain lah.
-pray hard nothing would happen.-
hahas,brenda is trick this morning by esther ;D
esther pass brenda her early birthday pressie.
den is wrap with many layer so look very big but is actually quite small.
i really laugh until my stomach damn pain when she opening the pressie lah.
in the afternoon brenda told me this : if i on the ambulance,i would save my last breath before fainting to tell the paramedics to send me to KKH.
you know why?cos KKH breakfast can choose den very nice to stay there -.-
next whole week is MT Intensive Prog,i think i'm gonna die of it.seriously,i meant it.
i wanna rest,hahas.

爱我别走，如果你说你不爱我，不要真的听你说出口，在给我一点温柔。
我的男主角，到底在何处？为何还不出现呢？
在这一生，我最想要的就是你的爱。

the reason why ,

i know you still can't bear to leave,
cos you didn't ever turned back when you're leaving.

just finished watching Knock Knock Loving you Ep8.
it's getting nicer & nicer.
anyway,had the career guidance day in school just now.
it's actually quite fun & i really did know more abt the courses & route i'm choosing now.i clearer view.[:
i was almost late in the morning lah.den me alif,chicken was @ the back of class line,in the end got scolded by mdm sharifah ._.
sit @ parade sq for dk how long cos of npcc day & mdm tay all that talking.
me & amman was talking alot throughout the time there.XD
den went back class for temp. taking & went to hall.
had talks & presentation from different poly & institute.
the session was damn long & the bloody hall damn humid lah!~ #*&!$@%#$^#
i sit there unil my butt damn pain :X
after recess went for the talks of the chioces i chosed.
first was photography.quite bored off but got inez & beisi laopo ♥♥ so quite oh kay lah XD
den went for accountancy.quite fast finish , & the air-con damn cold.i almost got frozen :X
had lunch so went to the hall & got the brochures & leaflet of those poly.hehes.
after lunch had talk on how to manage interview.
wasn't really listening :X
after that had the GCE 'O' Level Mid-year MTL briefing.
gosh,13 day left ._.
ended @ 3.05
& home sweet home.
i want oreo strawberry ice-cream @ nihon mura!
Ahmei & MaMa remember tmr's date ah!~
-fly fly fly away-

with you , it's real perfection .

watch me fly , catch my heart.

haven't been updating since thurs.
gosh,this blog is like almost dead?
real tired after going out ytd.
yesterday
went out with tinghui ling♥ to pop @ central .
alot of ppl lah ._.
bought alot of stuffs damn heavy x.x
spend ard 40plus bucks?
broke now.
den saw felicia qkl♥ with her sister.
not long after went to queue up.
the bloody queue is damn long lah!
queue with fel qkl too.
we spend like almost 2hrs queuing up just to pay.
imagine how much earthlings are there too.
i pity the primary school students now.
their parents bought like a basket full of assessment books for them to do?
damn scary,luckily i now in secondary school hehes XD
after paying walked to bugis junction.went cold storage buy drink & food :D
den trained back home.
@ night chat outside hse with shanice Ahmei,Rach & Jeannie{ ♥ ♥ ♥ }!
den watch boys over flower~
i wanna watch the next ep please,faster!XD
i shall stop here.
14days to GCE 'O' Level MT Paper.):

love game ,

haven't been updating since next sat?lols.
Sunday
Happy Belated MaMa Day! ;D
♥♥♥ grandnanny,gugu & mummy [:
cooked spaghetti for breakfast.i use up whole bottle of pasta sauce :X
den afternoon went to grandfather hse @ simei.
very little ppl went.i was damn sian lah.
luckily got ppl msg with me awhile.
thank you thank you ah!♥
i left for home ard 5plus,cos too bored liao!
den watch teevee & stuff.hehes.
Monday
i apparently stayed at home.
only went out to slack awhile.hahas.
Tuesday
had A Maths extra lesson,i reached damn early.
finished class @11 cos of the Teacher Promotion day thingy.
den went to meet meeta sweetie.
had eighteen chef.hahas.
den went to tamp.
walk ard went home @ 3plus.
Wednesday
gosh,got back some of the papers.
wouldn't believe what i saw.

MT:60%
E.Maths:64.1% (!)
Social Studies:31/50.

didn't have after noon prog.
so went to eat KFC with esther ♥
den walk ard,after that bus-ed home.
Today
early morning rain.damn it man.
when i get to class i already wet from head to toe -.-
no choice have to walk ard bare footed.
took back some of the papers.

English P2:25/50
Physics:17/85 x.x
POA:52/100

hais,stupid physics.
kays bah update tmr or something?
too tired & still haven do hmwk :X
bbye,i go makan XD
remember tag & feed my tagboad!♥♥♥♥

infinity :B

yeahness!~
MYE is finally over!
last MYE i'm gonna have in mine life,also the best.
now updates~
Yesterday
after school went home bath & stuff den went out.
lunched @ nihon mura with ling ;D
eat until damn full.
den ard3plus went tamp inter.
den bus-ed to safra.
i go in the orchid bowling there i chuatio.
alot bg peepos man!
xiao wo yi da tiao! ._.
den went to inez,eileen lau & yeeching.
lucky lorh i reach there table our turn liaos.
the table damn big.
played four rounds.
first round i nvr even shoot in one ball.
second & third round i hit until black ball went in ! D:
fourth round me & inez finally won XD
den ard5plus bus-ed to tamp1.
bought stuff & bus-ed back bedok.
den came back home area meet shanice AhMei.
went to pay her bills,all $1notes ._.
after that had roti prata :x
after that home sweet home.
Today
went tamp1 again ._.
went with Shanice AhMei.
bought mothers' day stuff.
den had the b1 Xiao Ba Wang meesua & crispy chicken.
went there deh void deck slack awhile dne bus-ed back bedok.
took 229 for one round & reach home ard6.30plus.
kays,i want go chat chat liaos~ ;D
reply me leh you!@^%@#^@#

zero gravity ,

画面不动了 情歌不唱了
爱情的重播键明明一直按着
什么原因 让时间停了
在伤心的镜头被停格
电梯不动了 爱也停止了
可是坠入的感觉怎么还在呢
热闹的街道还在狂欢着
为何我却孤单 飘浮着
无重力腾空 慢慢跌入无尽的黑洞
没知觉的伤痛 飘荡的心
却摔得更重
我爱你 你爱我 是不是 还不够
我不懂 为什么 付出的 全落空
无重力 爱坠落
粉身碎骨的我 不受控制的手
还能抓住什么
我爱你 你爱我 算不算 是承诺
全世界 都沉默 没声音的嘶吼
无重力 爱坠落
最缓慢的折磨 只剩遍体鳞伤的我
撑到最后
画面不动了 情歌不唱了
爱情的重播键明明一直按着
什么原因 让时间停了
在伤心的镜头被停格
电梯不动了 爱也停止了
可是坠入的感觉怎么还在呢
热闹的街道还在狂欢着
为何我却孤单 飘浮着
无重力腾空 慢慢跌入无尽的黑洞
没知觉的伤痛 飘荡在半空的心
越挣扎却摔得更重
我爱你 你爱我 是不是 还不够
我不懂 为什么 付出的 全落空
无重力 爱坠落
粉身碎骨的我 不受控制的手
还能抓住什么
我爱你 你爱我 算不算 是承诺
全世界 都沉默 没声音的嘶吼
无重力 爱坠落
最缓慢的折磨 只剩遍体鳞伤的我
撑到最后
I love you
我爱你 你爱我 是不是 还不够
我不懂 为什么 付出的 全落空
无重力 爱坠落
粉身碎骨的我 不受控制的手
还能抓住什么
我爱你 你爱我 算不算 是承诺
全世界 都沉默 没声音的嘶吼
无重力 爱坠落
最缓慢的折磨 只剩遍体鳞伤的我
撑到最后

today paper 8marks fly away liaos :x
after paper went breakfast/lunch with beisi laopo & esther honey baobei♥♥♥
dine @ pizza hut.
damn funny while they chatting i drink finish my soup liaos.
den in the end eat pizza i last one finish.
we chat alot of stuff wahahahas.
hehe,got secrets lols~
den went TS look look at VCDs & DVDs.
ard 1plus they left den i go library.
need scan ez-link ._.
den sit down wait for ling come.
ling came ard 1.30+?
den bus-ed to tamp.
bought stuffs den post present.
thanks for the strawberry red tea ling!♥
den bus-ed back inter & home sweet home.
kay lahs i hungry leh.go makan :D
den go study ;D
bbyes~[:

those whispers ,

our love will always exist,what we got is still something something.
oh,this feeling is too good to miss.
boy,you know we are true so stop crying.
today physics paper Two,guess what happen the moment i flip open.
first question i dk how do ah!
lololols~
in the morning Inez said something like this:when exam finish 一切完美,when take back result('cos alot underline) 屁股心花朵朵开.
lols~ understand?inside joke ;D
i'm like in a lost for both paper today ._.
cos very tired den can't concentrate much x.x
i enjoy chatting with shanice AhMei,jinxian & tian ( for awhile nia ._.) for now lololols~
jinxian mu tou ren really very cute lah~ ;]
kkays,i better go off.very very tired.
tmr still got E Maths Paper Two :D
tag tag tag & feed feed my tagboad :D


当你离开的时候，我多么不像相信我的距离是那么遥远的。


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wahahas,oh yeah Happy Birthday Winnie & Huanyin!
&& EILEEN TANGMEI GO OUT~

different perspects of live.

flunk history ._.
not enough time do ._.
second SEQ only write one para den time's up x.x
maths paper one not that bad lah.
tmr having physics paper two & POA paper two.
gonna revise & study later on again.
but now i need a break.
休息是为了，走更遥远的路。

为什么，我感到好渺，好脆弱。
顿时内，感觉到我好孤单。
过去的一切到底去那了？
为什么都早不回了呢？
是什么事情和人会让人笑得那么开心呢？
我不知道，真的不知道了。
我好累，好累。

be with you,

Wilber's new song feat. Akon!damn nice ;D
wahaha,i know what to cook for Mother's Day already.
but the prob is i need to cook for so many ppl to eat ._.
like i dk & i lost count of how many peeps?
somemore need go granddad's house.
hehes,there you go with the mv ;D

be there,just be there.

感谢我不可以，拥抱你的背影。所以才能，变成你的背影。
-random-
shall update later ;D

我的爱已熔化在空气里 ;

meow~hehes.
went out just now to study abit :X
went to tamp 1.
bought a polo tee from Uni Qlo ;D
den went tmall,bought tanktop from pepper plus.
den went to buy guide books ;D
shanice AhMei gone crazy spend 40bucks in mango -.-
den trained down to whitesands for sakae -.-
den trained back bedok mac study.
damn noisy & hot ._.
until ard 4 jeannie MaMa came {:
at mac study , chat & slack.
until ard6 yuen came to meet.
den walk ard & slack.
ard7 bus-ed home ;D
now very tired ._.
enjoy the video/song :D
/more pics & details on Shanice AhMei's blog.

deepest wound craved by your closed ones.

study,study,study!
5 paper down so many more to go!
S.S is gone case ._. didn't complete my SBQ & SEQ
Chem is somehow bad ._.
10m fly away.
POA Paper One is the best paper for the day luh! ;D
only balance sheet can't balance :X
morning first paper delayed cos of temperature taking.
mr tiang came in.
he damn funny lorh.
took winnie's chem den say "i test you all ah."
den we nod our heads.
he say " exothermic & endothermic reaction on what page ?"
den the grp of us was like "cher!"
hahas.
damn next monday is elective hist & E Maths.
hope all this past faster~ [:
-boom,gone-

lone ranger , not

exams,exams,exams!
english paper gone,MT tmr.
thursday three paper at one goal.wish me luck right?
HIATUS?
update next time ;D

没有你的每一天，

-dang-
didn't update for so long leh heh.
didn't have time & dk what to update at times.
i want my phone~
my baobei laogong phoneyyyy D:
english paper is coming i two day time .
somehow i feel something suppressing me,which i had never felt it before.
maybe i didn't want to feel english anymore,but somehow it's disappointing at times.
anyway,i needa break hehe.

who still remember those memories?
who still remember those warmth?
who still remember those promises?
who still remember those days?
if you don't know me at this point,
den i highly doubt you will ever know.
baby,i stay in love with you.[: