tell me why ;

man i'm really lazy & tired.
tired of almost everything,lazy is one of the resultant force.
sometimes,sometimes,i really hate myself.
i hate myself for not doing the best out of myself.
i hate myself cos of what i did wrongly.
i hate myself for being so .... useless?
i used to be so strong in front of almost everyone.
till one day,i knew i couldn't take all this anymore.
not alone anymore.it feels so ... indescribable.
why couldn't things be like past old times?
why couldn't happy times stay?
why couldn't , why couldn't i feel happy anymore?
everything,everyone seems so far away from my reach.
i couldn't feel what i wanted no more.
why couldn't i get what i want?
i'm just like a empty shell,not knowing what to do next.
i'm just so fake outside.
tell me,tell me what did i ever did wrongly to get into this position.
tell me,tell me how to be happy once more.
tell me,tell me where should i go.
tell me,tell me what to do and what to say.
i don't wanna be in this place any longer.
maybe i'm just being foolish,thinking that as long as i'm good to others.
i will be treated equally good by them.
tell me to wake up from this idea please.
it just ... hurts so much.

告诉我 悲伤的时候会想起我
告诉我 你也捨得让我独自漂泊
有些话说不出口 害怕又犯下了错
分手还没有说 泪就想流

can't sleep through the pain ;

RAWRRRRRRR!~
i went to the polyclinic & guess what?no more queue number -.-
how unlucky can i be today?
firstly,i misplaced my spec box ._.
den forgot hand in A Maths hmwk,nearly got scolded.
third,want see doc no number ._.
forget it -.-
morning assembly had spot check ._.
heng uh~i clever enough put everything at the back and use my spec stable it XD
mr teo said one sentence & everyone laughed.
he said:the curtain is for covering the face when the sun too shinning.LOL
i laughed man,den he said:don't laugh so loud luh.
after that had chem,went chem lab.
did experiment.
den A Maths.woah,can say quite boring ._.
recess eat some food.
den E Maths,i last minute 'do' hmwk :x
after that had two free period ;D
den had chinese.
copied work den left ard 1.15
went down to canteen.
den i saw chunhui.
so chatted with him.damn funny we chatetd super long den slowly got more ppl joined us.
ard2.20 went for A Maths.
copy & listen,den ended at 3.30+
went canteen for awhile den bus-ed to inter.
went polyclinic no number den went spec shop.
& i bought strawberry red tea & curry puff ;D
den home sweet home.;D
finally can rest.weekends <3
bbye ;D

runaway ;

can't remember what i did for the past few days.LOL.
wednesday
had E Maths CT.careless mistake ._.
den had PE.idiot man,i'm like injured now?
the day went as per normal.den during SS took our new CEPAS.
-.- wth...mr azahar laughed at my photo ._.
den stayed in school.
went home ard6.
after dinner & bath studied for POA & E Maths.
study until damn tired ._.
slept ard 10.30
my mum is singing 'ru yan' now and then
phobia of the song already x.x
Today
wah sian,woke up and i was like very painful.
my back damn pain ._.
den went out to the bus stop,suddenly remember forgot bring belt.
came back home rush like crazy.
reach school just nice assembly.XD
-heng-
had POA test,careless mistake again luh~
hist. watch vid on the unit.
den had recess.
man,am i so small?LOL
everyone is squeezing through my back there to go and sit.LOL.
english did correction.& we got scolded for some reason or another.
dne physics i was practically in a sleeping mode & chatting away.
somehow i was able to listen to what Mr Teo was talking.
MT totally craziness.
cos of brenda chua.XD
after that lunch studied for E Maths test.
den had the test,omgosh i totally blank out?D:
had humanities prog.had test again -.-
SBQ test.write until i hand pain ._.
dismissed @ 3.15.
den had GG.
damn tired luh ._.
i march until i cannot take it anymore.
i lean against the pillar .
wah,super comfortable ;D
but the moment i stand too long again,the pain come back -.-
anyways,left school ard 6.30+
walked slowly to backgate with jingwen,huanyin & yuanting.
damn funny can?we walked super long XD
and we had fun.hehe.
reach home ard 7.30?
& now here i'm.
overdued video;


-credits to yuanting!-
enjoy!~

replies of tags ;

Jx: eh superrrrrrrrrrrr belateddddddddddddd happy birhtday!! lol haha -hahas,thank you,where's my pressie?-

meeta: psycho ALREADY, may i remind you :) -crazy women :X-

chloe: suuuper happy belated birthday, JESSICA! -thanks,& PLEASE STOP CALLING ME JESSICA!-

♥Ţĩáń.: yooooooo im here to tag~ wa ur tag box so small -_-~ -LOL!not small luh,cute mah XD tag more horh!-

meeta: thanks for not linking me. though this is like the what? tenth time im telling you? -sorry i forgotten?:X-

Shirly: lols. plus no lisence. -LOL that idiot mr lim & en hao! rawrrrrr!-

i will update tmr :X

nobody but you,

Saturday
met enhao @ bedok.
den we went mac to do hmwk.
i break record did hmwk for ard 3 plus hours.
& enhao was busy sms-ing peeps.
ard 5 mr lim & shirly came to meet us.
shirly is crazy over cats LOL.
beware of her man.:x
den mr lim's girlf came.
after that went tmall.
his girlf's driving skill not bad eh.hehe.
den me & shirly had 'pillow fight' on the way, damn funny luh.
slowly in the car became a ktv XD
his girlf really need GPS.
after makan went to converse sale.
shirly went crazy & den tired LOL.
after that reach home shirly collected her books & she went.
Today
watched School House Rock The Movie on Okto {:
ard 11 went out.
went bedok inter to deposit cheque with mummy.
after that on the way to top up her ez-link i saw afifah daughter~XD
we damn crazy we was like ohhhhhhhhhhhh!~ & we hugged XD
den bus-ed to expo.
went robinson sale.bought stuff.
den went pop sale.bought stuff.
& home sweet home {:
dang!tmr school starts.o.O
haven't complete all hmwk eh :X
kay i shall go~ hahas XD
bbye ;D

watching you walk away ;

i wanna runaway with you,to a faraway land.
& that's what i was trying to do.
xin ting is gonna be bored to death ._.
there's only grandnanny♥ & me at home now.
hehes,i just watched finish K.O 3anguo ep 4.
i regretted eating the garlic & onion chips. T.T
now i'm trying to get rid of the smell D:
dang!shirly's books are still at my house ._.
someone help man D:
anyways,ytd night met Shanice AhMei & Jeannie {♥} den went walk walk.
good lorh both attached den keep sms their boyf.
AhMei sot one keep ask should i break?-no life-
went to the renovated food court.
damn nice & the ppl super uber friendly.
the moment i step in i thought i at some other places.XD
den went ntuc to walk walk.
talk alot man.miss those time when we are always together ):
oh yeah,thanks daddy♥ loads!~
he went inter with his friend & bought me my top-up card hehe ;D
shall update later when i'm back.i got to rush to meet en hao & co.
bbyes xD

it's like the darkness is light ;

disturbia disturbia
i'm bored :X
i just finished watching parts of love or bread & brown sugar macchiato(again).
you can't blame me,i'm bored so i gotta find something to entertain myself.
i woke up @ 8plus cos i heard dad bought breakfast stuff from maxwell food centre.
the power of food XD
i had 5 oneh oneh :x
is very nice deh kay!hehe.
i wanna go out but too lazy & tired :X
i shall try to go out tmr hehe.
hmwk really stacking up D:<>

It's not enough to say that I miss you

-declare me dead-
i'm kinda dead :X
had one an half hour of A Maths just now.
the room like no air con ._.
make me bring hoodie den nvr wear ._.
nvrminds.
after that went lunch @ ljs with lynette.
had a great time.
after lunch lynette went off first & i went to print out hmwk.
4 sets + one pic 6bucks.
sian mans.
after that went to buy bbt at each a cup.
strawberry red tea ♥
den went back ntuc there to pass qkl her hmwk.
den i walk back inter miss bus -.-
reach home ard 2.
tmr should be going see doc leh :X
is must go,i keep forgetting seh.
hope tmr won't forget ;x
i got a seoul garden complimentary lunch/dinner from pop.
hehe,can go eat XD
i'm glad daddy didn't saw my strawberry red tea or else die XP
i needa restock my stuffs for studying soon.
dang!do check out my facebook {:

i'm confused.
i feel so untouched.
看着你亲口提出 要我别哭.
希望和你一起 分享分分秒秒的两颗真心.
insecurity occurs when i don't see you.
i don't wanna let you see the scar.
i don't wanna let you worry.
i just wanna see your smile.
i've been thinking,
which route should i choose.
i've been thinking,
what if i hurt anyone.
i've been thinking,
in my world,every now and then.
miss you so.

summer days.

Tuesday
went breakfast with cheehean.
i was practically stonning in mac.
should be too tired leh ;X
reach school like 5 min late.
lucky no need so forfeit hehe XD
lunch @ 85.
the course very fun luh.
did groupwork again.& cheryl ask:still got cake or not uh?
LOL!
reach home ard 6plus.
Today
reach school @8 exactly LOL.
last day of PSA.
very fun & tiring man.
finally know what to do for exam leh.
surprise test i just passed ._.
den had hurdles(?).
we hold each other until damn tight man.
scary but fun.
& pictures!
i wanna rest super tired x~x

Sweet Sixteen!{:

HAPPY SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF ;D
thanks for all the birthday wishes/pressie.{:
today damn busy/tired/fun!
morning woke up @6.20 den saw 6msg?
2 from same person,the others from shanice Ahmei,shazli,jeannette,meeta sweetie.
den slowly got others ppl send me too.thanks loads!
wash up,bath & stuff den went inter.i super duper late ;X
late by half an hour,sorry for letting lynette,fel & jamie sister wait ;x
i eat super fast den after that we bus-ed to school.
shall skip to the course,hehe
my class coach is Coach Isaac & Emma.
they damn good luh!hahas.
first activity was house of cards have to stack up cards all that.(pic at bottom)
second activity was entangled.
yuan damn cute saw already call my name.LOLS!
grouped with shimin,brenda,fel,jamie,wenli,winnie,cheryl.
the activity damn fun & funny luh.i keep hold brenda's hand deh.
den our hands keep twist here & there XD
during lunch took the cake & pressie from jiahui.
den put the cake in class went bedok inter for lunch.
had fish soup beehoon.
lucky i bought teenage den bus-ed back school.rain until crazy XD
i used my teenage to cover me XD
den i'm the dryest out of fel & jamie sister.
den continue course.
third activity had to write out our goals & dreams on the mahjong paper.
after that cut cake.damn funny one lorh.
i literally bullied brenda.;x
actually nvr bully at all.
den i gave the coach a piece of cake each.
after that i say this to brenda:brenda you did nothing right?help me throw the box.
she was like what!i eat the smallest piece can?LOLS!
so i disposed the box myself.
after that went to wash my hands all that.
continue course.theory all that.
but very fun & funny!LOLOL.
ended at ard 6?
den bus-ed home.
pictures time!

strawberry + cookies 'n' cream waffle from gelato.

the castle me,amman,jamie sister,zhanpeng built.

this is how tall it is.

den become like this XD

me & sweetie,i look weird?;O

jamie sister act shy :X

my birthday cake too small liao ;X

LOL!cheryl covering her face,wenli & winnie behind her & brenda chua next to her.
guess where am i?xp
i guess that's all for today will try to update more tmr {:

3 more hours & counting!

falalala~
alright first thing first,thanks shirly/afifah daughter for being there ytd {:
thanks for the advance birthday wishes form some of you.
i'm oh kay now,super high :X
really leh too high super tired leh D:
i just read my past post.
like last year's march one?find it kinda speechless.
die,seriously,let's take a look of my hmwk ;

chem theory workbook [ corrections + QA + Metals to be completed. ]
e.maths vectors hmwk.
a.maths filing / rate of change hmwk .
POA [ study for test / do some revision. ]
E-learning.
english weekend hmwk.

woah,so many to complete :x
tmr till thurs still need go school,let see ;

Monday,Tuesday,Wednesday:Dk what course.
Thursday:A.Maths Extra lesson 10.30-12noon.
Monday-Sunday:E-learning ._.

wth,so many things,yet schedule packed.
omgosh luh not enough time can?
mid-year start from end of april ._.
whatever luh,i wanna go zi-high first ;x
you make me wanna ,
i wanna believe you are strong ♥

do you feel it?

meow~
woke up @ ard 11+?:X
i fall asleep at 12plus ytd.hehe
was chatting with ppl & watching K.O 3anguo.
quite nice leh the show hehe.
i need to buy school bag tmr,it's a necessary =p
i realised i haven did any hmwk or studying yet :X
later get nagging/ scoldings again.
the sun make me wanna sleep somemore seh ;x
nvrmind i shall try to concentrate & do some work hehe.

i don't wanna miss any part of the happy moments.
i don't wanna wait for you to talk to me anymore.
i don't wanna feel lost anymore.
i wanna make you happy,
i wanna you sad no more.
i wanna see your smile as much as possible.
i all wanna is us to be happy,
in whatever way it is.
i will be happier,
what's got,what's lost,it's fair enough.
我不需要海枯石烂的温柔
只要你每天都属於我
全心呵护我 保护著 爱你的我

i'm too obedient;

Wednesday
had english common test,should be able to pass this time round.hehe.
lesson as usual,
just that MT had to climb all the way up to 4th floor.tiring ._.
after school went army market with jiahui.
den went bugis buy some things and trained home @ 6plus.
reach home @ ard 7?
Thursday
POA quite slack.cos we did for three periods was studying & doing work.
den had history,watch video.& do some work & write some notes.
den class as usual,after school had guides.
rashida was here,had to be in neat attire.
me,fel,chloe,mich & xiuxuan went canteen to planned finish amazing race thingy.
after that went for PT.didn't really did much.
in the end not enough time so didn't play amazing race.
so did horseshoe(sp?) formation.
den it started to rain.
no choice went guides room for debrief.
ended @ 6.10?
daddy suppose pick me up but didn't so stayed in school to change my personal file.
my bag is gonna broke man.
but lucky thing got ppl go home with me.hehe.
walked halfway to bus stop @ red swastika there herad a 'bang' sound.
turned ard saw car accident.
BG students are kinda helpful everyone stop at the bridge & look LOL.
reach bus stop,went home with cheehean & jiahui.Y
lucky got ppl go home with me or else if my bag really break i die lorh.
somemore got POA book to take.
& guess what cheehean asked me?you got take POA meh?-.-
LOL.he is asking for the obvious :X
did filing & stuff for a maths.
den slept @ ard10?
Friday
THANK YOU WENLI FOR THE PRESSIE!{:
woke up,left eye damn pain.
maybe cos press onto the pillow too hard :X
reach school @7.15.
took chem stuffs to parade square.
assembly super long lorh.
they talk super long & prize giving too.
i sit until want die leh :X
in the end chem nvr do practical ._.
had theory study all that.
den had 3 period A Maths.
finished rate of change den started on Maxima & Minima.
had recess.chun hui faster break voice luh!
too high pitch liao.hehe.
his hair got messed up by me & jamie (:
den had assembly.
omgosh man,got public canning.
those three quite good deh eh.
heard from jamie the middle guy dion(sp?) super good to her deh.
super sad luh.
the whole thing took ard 45min?
den had presentation by mr ang abt the YOG thingy.
after that went class took things den went for MT afternoon prog.
all we did is compre again.
den do finish went toilet & school hall.
see ppl play badminton.LOL.
den went back took things went off.
waited for shirly daughter & bus-ed home.
bath & stuffs den went out.
went bugis walk walk all that.
saw BG ppl.
den ard6 trained back to inter & i bus-ed to tmall.
got my things bus-ed home @ ard 7.30+.
pictures tmr!hehe.bbyes.i wanna rest :X

one piece missing & everything gone.

i'm bored ._.
is like i'm kinda sick.lack of sleep.tmr gonna sleep in class if possible :x
tmr got english common test,die man.
need memorize vocab list ._.
i hope i can remember them,seriously remember them in my mind clearly.
i need to pass this test no matter what.
after school met shirly daughter den went to far east.
get some stuffs but i haven got something yet rawr~
kay luh,won't blog leh tmr den update hehe(:

i wanna believe,

Yesterday
after went granddaddy's hse met afifah daughter @ eastpoint.
den went pop adn trained to tmall.
get loads of stuffs & den walk ard.
ard6plus took 69 to inter.
went bengawan solo to get shirly daughter's cake.
mocha cake ;D
den met en hao and den went macs.
saw alvin & yongding.
we waited for jiahui & weijia to come.
meanwhile saw hakim,jiayi & co.
we look retarded with the cake in the macs.Lol.
i was like keep checking to ensure the cake doesn't like goes bad.
ard 7 jiahui & weijia finally reach.
sat there awhile & rushed home.
slept super early as i had a headache.
Today
HAPPY FIFTEEN BIRTHDAY SHIRLY DAUGHTER!
must be more happy {:
hehe,hope you like the present i gave you & the cake.
early morning reach school.i'm early man.like for once Lol.
put bag and stuff brought the cake to canteen to put.
recess meet up & we celebrated her birthday.nice one no candle cos no lighter :x
i think i'm like a mad person scream damn loud lol.
den had normal routines just that POA lesson is freaking cold today.
den had chem afternoon prog & stayed in school.
did some revision & planning for GG.
found lots of stuff today & we returned to general office.
ard 6 played 'badminton' & we aimed the shuttercock into a box.
damn fun & funny luh.
and i dk where jinxian get a spoiled racket & start to seperate the string & racket.
den shirly came,had a sudden brokedown after most of the ppl went.
went home @ ard7 with enhao,jiahui,weijia,ashad.
i wanna go far east to get belt & a dress from mx & more ._. ahhh~help~
oh kay now pictures!{:





so nice so nice.it's all about you.









early birthday present from beisi laopo,thanks loads!

the birthday girl with her birthday cake.Lol.

Happy Birthday - The Click Five

080309;Happy Womens' Day

Happy Womens' Day!(:
going out later on to granddaddy's house.
den maybe meeting jiahui to buy something
gosh,my shopping list grow longer from ytd's trip ._.
hehe,8more day!{;
shirly,beware!hehe:x
& yeah ,happy sixteen birthday lynette!
i don't think my hmwk are done,so yeah gotta do it later.
blog later when i'm back if possible.

我多希望，我会更快乐，但是我还办不到。
我只想安慰你有的混乱。
忘了你和我，忘了那一天。
每个人在向前走，而我呢？
开开心心是我的选择，希望你也一样。
我要相信你是爱我的。
i'll be right here with you,
you'll be right here with me.

9 days ! {:

Friday
super tired day.
suppose to go see doc but didn't
i so guai stay back in school go for house meeting at canteen.
but it's damn bored.
den i do hmwk for very very long.
do until i want die man.
i really need to find a day to go see doc for checkup :x
after that played badminton with enhao,bernice,khairuldin & a sec1 guy.
they damn funny man hahas.
den ard 6 we rested at canteen.
chat all that after npcc released went home with shazli.
den i reach home took guides uni start to re-sew the thinking patch & badges.
in the end i dk how come,the needle poke into my thumb.Lol.
den i did my first ironing hehe (:
after that bath everything,slept at 10plus.hehe.
Today
woke up at 5am?
was super tired,ard 5.35 went out of house.
the road is dark and i can't really see clearly,scary.
reach bedok mac @ 5.59am.
i'm early for once {:
after that beatrice,huanyin came.
yuan came too we packed food & yuan's dad fetch us to stadium,thanks uncle![:
reach stadium even before the others did.
we took that time to eat our breakfast.
i was like when everyone come i feed them with my Sausage Mcmuffin with egg.
hehe,must make sure they have enough energy.
when everyone reach had a short briefing & went to the prize table to help out.
got me,yuan,beatrice,afifah,farhana.
put everything in order & den rest awhile.
in the end it rained.we had to move the table and stuffs in ._.
first round of prize presentation is ard 9plus cos it's delayed.
after the prize giving thing rest awhile.
the chaos start when the milo van arrived.
me & huanyin went to ask the ncc if anyone is there.
in the end raymond told us got two small boys ._.
nvrmind you know,went there npcc was helping so i ask guides to help out too.
me & huan running everywhere hahas.
after that second round prize giving was ard 11?
den had all the races all that.
& i went to milo van to check out again,got one npcc sec2 topaz girl scold shazli & den i scold back,she scold me.nvr die before sia.off duty so what no respect isit?-.-
didn't have a proper rest.
the final prize giving was under the big hot sun.
& that's how i got sunburnt.
the medal & tray super hot & that's when things starts to screw up.Lol.
after finish the prize giving me & yuan was practically gonna faint.
dehydrated.x.x
thanks en hao for your lecture pad.
went lunch @ pizza hut with Shazli,Jiahui,Chunhui,Joedy,Yanren,Lucas,Xingying,Zakiah & two more sec3 juniors.
the bill was super ._.
hahas,chun hui you very cute luh!your voice so high pitch Lol.
hehe,reach home within half an hour chiong out again.
went far east with shirly walk ard until leg gonna break.
after that suppose to go sing k but in the end never cos of some reason.
so shirly ask ppl play bball.
den we took 14 to school there.
& mr lim picked us up.
play-ed / (watch-ed) bball with en hao,mr lim,shirly,jiayi & another two bg guys.
played until ard 8plus went home.
mr lim fetch us home,thanks mr lim![:
now finally can rest hehe.{:

i don't wanna remember you man.
seriously,sick & tired so just get out of my mind.thanks alot man.

catch everything in my palm,

Monday
early morning had the sports day briefing during Interaction Time.
i can't really remembered what happened.
but i remembered i passed my POA,15.5/25 {:
but i knew there's rainbow again.(:
& it's damn nice.
Tuesday
had health screening so skip some lessons.
the nurse damn cute luh,she ask me 'den you can go for napfa?'
i was like,i try to.
den she ask me go see doctor for further checkup.
i really very long nvr go checkup :x
suppose to go but never make appointment so never go :x
Wednesday
Ct was social studies.
the question is like from last year's mid-year paper.
got back chem paper,hehe i passed (:
den social studies after lunch,the whole class got punished by mr azahar.
went to walked ard bball court,like dk for how long.
& loads of ppl are looking at us.
after that mr azahar still can joke with us.Lol.
den had english went through corrections den off i go to canteen.
i waited for enhao,shirly & jiahui.
shirly & enhao played bball while i sit there like some idiots?
den i reached home ard 7plus.
Thursday
old same stuff.
three periods of POA.
kinda wanna fall asleep but i didn't (:
den had history,watched two short clip on korean war.
i asked brenda this:"if call you go there,freezy cold,you want go not?"
den she replied something silly:"i want!so nice,so fun!"
make no sense to me.
had english & den physics.
physics test quite oh kay,i think the max mark i will score is 16/20.
cos MCQ i lost 1mark leh ._.
den MT brenda really funny lorh.
we were like laughing until no body business.
shall skip to GG.
today we scold juniors until i going no voice leh.
no choice who tell them climb over our heads.
den training,spring cleaning.
after that had breifing & discussion.
i'm in-charge of prize giving for sports day together with yuanting they all.
next week PT!{:
alrights,pictures time.



done,bbye (:

You,

THE REASON - Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many thing I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you (x4)

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

a thousand words to describe,

hehe,i today stayed at home to study [:
den was msg-ing ppl♥ hehe.
the weather really makes ppl feel like sleeping.
i finished all the E Maths hmwk & i did some extra hmwk for a maths.
complete my chinese file.;D
i need save money leh,in order to get what i want.
the next few days i might not be updating blog.
after school need either go buy/get stuffs or need study for test.
*xinting xinting,cannot stress up!*
alrights,update another day (: